There are always words

Soooo-- I was reading the blog of Ms. Kenya http://kenyatns.blogspot.com/2009/01/do-you-have-trigger-word.html (umm yeah, sorry I don't know how to make it just say the word instead of the entire link... lol)

and it inspired me...

I've always believe that there are words, in ANY situation, that can change it for the better. A breakup can always be unbroken, hatred can begin to be reversed, and new love can begin to flourish. There are always words...

What about words to make you hot? Do you have words that can change your demeanor or arouse you? Are there words that set your temper aflair or your panties afire?? What does it take, verbally, to make you awaken sexually. No touch. Just words...

ME... I like a good mind-fuck. Just being honest. I could use cushie words and try to candy coat it but why? This is MY blog... lol. I like a man who can feed me mentally. Make me think. Make me reconsider my own ideals w/ your views and insights. We don't have to be speaking on anything remotely sexual... but if you are good at what you do... then I will be forever yours...

On the other hand... there are things you can say to infuriate me. One word I hate to hear is "NO". Being told "no" (in certain instances of course), makes my face hotttttt... almost blinds me and I tune all else out. Another way to almost paralyze me with anger is to tell me to " GET OUT!". WHAT??!!!!!! GET OUT? Really? I can't even COMPREHEND what that phrase means! GRRR

SEXUALLLLLLY... I love to be talked to dirty... Not just " Yeah girl... I'm gonna beat it up" (because that's CORNY! (lol)), but crazy out of site nasty dirty gutter talk. I like graphic stories and texts.. ACTUALLY-- If you send me a text that makes me hot, I'll read it over and over and over and over again.

Nothing better than a deep voice telling me how much they want to... ahem...let me stop... lmao... I'm just saying... I love it... even better when it's being said while they're pulling a handful of my hair or holding me down tightly...

Hmmm... wow... ok.. it's been a while right?! lol

** I am ready. NO SERIOUSLY!!!**

This is my bedroom as it sits now... empty... lol.. lonely lonely bed... lmaoooo


** Ok... last night was kind of a knee jerk blog. Let me qualify my remarks today...





--Thought I know you can't dictate when it happens. I think you can say when you're ready. I am ready to be 'in love' again. I just have fond memories of the great things that were involved w/ that. I am trying to shut out all the bad things that were tangled in w/ those trappings... lol.. I am tired of "making due" with someone who adores me and that I don't have reciprocal feelings for. That's not fair to either party.





-- At somepoint you have to say ENOUGH. I won't settle anymore... And that's where I am. I've had what I deemed to be a great (part) of what 'love' should be. And I won't settle for less. I want someone who treats me well ( this dude does). Someone who's smart ( not so much ). Someone who has a bright future ( regardless to what that means... and believe me...it is relative). Someone who thinks the sun rises and sets in me (haha! Believe it or not Jay-- he did @ first ("jenny")). Someone who makes me smile just by smiling... Someone who's frown makes me smile. Someone who's heartbreak also breaks my heart. Someone to be proud of. Someone to hold. Someone to wakeup next to and take that 'deep breath'.. you know which one I mean... the one that says... how did I get so damn lucky.





-- He's out there... and he'll find me. He'll find me while I'm volunteering... Or at the Gym... or taking a class... or something like that. My dream man doesn't hang out at the club. Blah... Blah Blah... Blah... I'm so sick of typing about love... SICK! I'm gonna put a "once a week" clause in my love subject matter section of the blog! lmaoooo

** I know I don't know you... But I want you... Sooooo baddddd "

Perhaps it's because I am a lover of music. Perhaps it is because I'm an extremely sensitive and outwardly 'in touch' person... but for me... there is a song that explains every single emotion that I'm having. Songs that explain my anger (The Beautiful People- Marilyn Manson). Songs that you can use to break up with someone ( It's over -- Roy Orbison ). Songs to let someone know how much you're going to miss them (Goodbye My Lover -- James Blunt ).

Every song makes me feel a certain way.. and long after the fact... will evoke that SAME emotion... and take me back there. I identify situations w/ songs. Remember them w/ the song that may or may not have been playing ( in the atmosphere... or in my mind)...

The same goes w/ songs making ME feel a certain way. The song playing right now... as I write this song is Maroon 5-- Secret ( It's also playing right now... as YOU'RE reading it... )... This song makes me think of the emotions that would be running through me as I met a new person with whom I've become a bit infatuated. I don't know him... he's a friend of a friend.... and PROBABLY it will NEVER EVER EVER EVER come to pass... but when I meet him ( and I will MEET him... if nothing else ) I'm sure these lyrics will be running through my head " I know I don't know you... but I want you sooooooooooo bad.."...

For whatever reason... this song... umm... makes me feel sexy and seductive... I can SO see myself making a vid to this song later on... not tonight... but @ somepoint... seductive eyes and smile... this song makes me think of that...

a nice black dress w/ some knee high boots.. hair down and long... wavy... fringe bang... a dim club perhaps playing this song in the background... eyeing this person as they walk in... legs crossed head slightly tilted... slightly biting lip... eyecontact.....

I know I don't know you... but I want you ... soooooo bad....

that's another thing the eyes can convey-- desire...