Let Me Introduce You To Someone....

Hi reader... I'd like to introduce you to someone... This guy is very special to me and he's REALLY just about the only person left w/ a penis that I'd do ANYTHING for :)

He's been a phenomenal friend from the time I met him 2yrs ago til now and I really do consider him one of the BEST people I know.

This guy is handsome, deep, brooding, poetic, and... did I mention handsome? This is my Jaycie... well not MY Jaycie--- but my HOMIE Jaycie... Jason... Jayce... Mr. (his last name) and my Blue blue... :)

He is my BEST "net" friend (Though we have also met person to person and hung out :) (A/C was CRAZY RIGHT! Thanks for being this cry baby's shoulder to ... well ... cry on. LOL )...

To be honest... You'd be hardpressed to find someone with a more genuine heart, a more loving soul, and a more giving spirit than this young man... There are only beautiful things in your future Jaycie... Positive things follow positive people.

Please join me in wishing Jayce a wonderfully fruitful 28th year.

Love ya Jaycie Happy Birthday :)

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You are " THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST " (inside joke)

(and Jillz-- I SWEAR I'm not biting ya style... lmaooo I thought about doin' this wayyy early... guess great minds with a wonderful friend in common, think alike :) He truly deserves to be honored.. )

(You can read his blog here-- :) )

(P.S-- He wears REALLY BIG WATCHES for some reason. I don't understand it... but when I am wealthy (which will be soon hopefully)-- I will buy you a HUGE ROLEX (so it may be a "Bolex" but I promise it won't turn your wrists green xD... )

*HI-- Welcome to the "BOX"--

You get so used to your surroundings and the things that you encounter w/n your life everyday, that you begin to run on ‘auto pilot’. You stop noticing the houses springing up, the new neighbors, even stores opening and closing. There’s not true “mask” simply a symptom of going through the “motions”. The BIGGER side of this, is believing that in your routine, you are doing the same thing that others are doing in theirs. Spontaneity lost, and even the realization that another “way”, “culture”, or “lifestyle” exists is lost.

… Living INSIDE the box…

Today I realized that I am living INSIDE the box. My town has a population of 5000 my county not much more. I live in the country ( which is nice for some), and have lost touch w/ my culture, my ‘people’, and the opportunities that are out there for me to become ‘involved’. It’s disheartening. It’s disappointing. It’s smothering.

I joked with my friend Jayce the other day that a lot of the people that read his blog are “beautiful women. Very ‘hip hop.’” I laughed at myself after that because I realized how UN-hiphop I am… lol. I was jealous. I think I ask Jayce (and other big city friends of mine) about urban terms everyday.Usually they laugh at me. They say I’m “cute” ( not in a good way but in that ’awww look at this imbecile’ kinda way). They tell me things, only to get hit w/ a new question. I don’t know much ’slang’ or urban terminology, and generally refer to things by either their literal name, or by some term we use here in KY. It’s not that I’m dumb (because my intelligence is something I pride myself on), It’s that I’m never in a situation where I am exposed to these things.

In a perfect world, I’d pack up and move to Philly tomorrow ( I fell in love w/ this city as I was passing through on my way to A.C). I’d go for total emersion into ‘hip-hop’ culture and just LIFE! Scared to death, I’d attempt to make new friends while sticking out like a sore thumb. Slowly but surely I’d become more adept to how life is outside of the country., leave behind my comfy shoes for stilettos’ (not really), and my nice slacks for a hot black dress ( umm AFTER weight-loss).

::sigh:: Perhaps my bigger fear is that my little one will grow up as sheltered as I am. She’ll feel as uncomfortable around what should be ‘home’ as her mom. I guess we have to become citizens of the world, and not just our OUR world. Being aware of what’s going on outside is only part of the solution… being APART of it, is the rest…

… I vow to break out of this damn box…

**Drunken Negro Faces?!!?! WTF!!!**

So... I was checking out "Life's a Fickle Pickle" and she had the link to this video posted... Now, I'd not SEEN it as of yet so I expected something light, airy, funny maybe, perhaps sexual, or a little gross ( as most blog video's go)... but um... I'm OUTRAGED!

THE FUCK IS A DRUNKEN NEGRO COOKIE?!?!

This bastid has the NERVE to make some big ugly chocolate cookies w/ RED GEL for eyes and BIG KNOTTY noses and lips... And say that they look like 'negros' (and I think he probably only called them that because the camera's were there)?! SUCH FUCKING IGNORANCE!!! What YEAR is this?! And thennnnnnnnn he says that President-O is 'Following in the footsteps of Lincoln." and "He'll get his."?! Seriously?! Why is he NOT in jail... I thought just THREATENING the Pres was a felony!

I think what infuriates me MORE is that he sees NOTHING WRONG with this portrayl! SPEWING his ignorance alllll over the fucking screen! He doesn't think that he's wrong! And the black dude on the street that they talk to almost conDONES THIS?! I'm breathless!

Ugh... I dn't know what else to say- I'm so angry that I'm flustered... My friend Jayce says that he apologized because he was getting death threats... But ya know, how about APOLOGIZING BECAUSE you're WRONG FUCK FACE?! I'm gonna post the vid below... but I haven't watched it yet at all...

Fuckin' idiot.

To all that read (and respond to) my blog--- THANK YOU :)

Just wanted to say THANKKKKKKKS to everyone who reads, follows, and responds to my blog. My reason for COMING here is because I like to VENTTTTT... I LOVE the opinions of others and actually read EVERY COMMENT. I've always been a fan of the opinions of strangers. An impartial audience that can say-- ummm this makes NO SENSE w/o the fear of hurting my feelings
(actually... be careful... I'm pretty sensitive... lol)
I'm feeling ok today.... i'm actually very thankful for a new day, a new week, a new life, and a new chance.... I'm super thankful for the friends that I have in my life and for having the sense to let the friends go, that I have. Some were toxic, some were holding me back, some I had just outgrown... I'm thankful that I had the sense to realize this.

I'm actually not sad AT ALL about the upcoming baby of my exie... I am dealing w/ it suprisingly well. It's actually a little disturbing to me that I'm not STILL in hysterics. The spin that I've applied is that God let me know, it's time to move on Jae. One day I will be so THANKFUL that Jim and I never worked out that it's going to be ridiculous. When I meet the man that I'm supposed to be w/... I'll probably call him and tell him (Jim) thanks for getting that other broad knocked up... lol

YO!!! (wait, do people say "yo" anymore?)... oh well... YO!!! We're about to get some ridiculous weather here in KY!!! Like 4 inches of snow over night...then another 4 during the day tomorrow... and then 1 1/2 inches of ICE ontop of that!!! WHAT?! Yeah it's not like a NEW YORK blizzard ( shut it Jayce)... but it's alot for here! I'm not excited to have to drive in that bull malarky! AT ALL

I wanna cuddle up with a book, or a person... and just vegggggggggggggggggggggg in the snow. lol but it's not hapnin'-- lol

Anywhoooo I've rambled enough for now...
I again, wanna say THANKS for reading my bullshit. And PLEASE comment... I love others opinions ( wait, I said that already... hold on...is this blog about to recycle itself and start over?! WHAT?!)...

::shiver::

I better stop while I can

Umm.. Jayce Tagged me.. so I guess I'll do it.

Five yummy things:
1. PUMPKIN pie (Not sweet potato... ew)
2. French Vanilla/Lemon mixed cake
3. Cheesecake
4. My lipgloss (it's flavored for HIS pleasure... lol)
5. ME! (Just bein' honest!)

Five songs I know by heart:
1. Ave Maria (In Latin)
2. Don't Speak (lol you just reminded me of that one Jayce)
3. Always (As) Stevie Wonder
4. Diary by Alicia Keys ((Iknow this one tooo... that my be my next MYSPACE KARAOKE venture... lmao)
5. Reach Out (Written by my exie Freeeebie--- and sung by Nikkie Batey ( @ least my favorite version is.. )

Five places I would like to escape to (in no particular order):
1. Brazil
2. Spain
3. Japan (that would be fun)
4. India
5. Anywhere w/ a nice water feature

Five things I would never wear:

1. To be honest I can't say something I'd NEVER wear...
2. An Athletic Supporter ( duh )
3. Hmmm
4. Seriously... I'd try anything
5. I'm not a fashionista... lol

Five favorite TV shows (in no particular order):
1. Run's House (Rev Run is the BEST DADDY... and I hope my hubby is like him)
2. The Cosby Show
3. Any home makeover show on HGTV
4. Lock-up
5. ALMOST ANY Reality T.V Show

Five things I enjoy doing (in no particular order):
1. Writing
2.Hanging out w/ my daughter out
3. Making others laugh
4. Reading
5. Umm Sex/Being close w/ a partner.

Five Favorite toys (in no particular order):
1. My ADULT toys... ;^)
2. Play Doh ( but I always made lewd figures w/ the dough)
3. Sit and Spin
4. My radio ( I love music...)
5. Men... xD