*I Love You*

It happened...

ACTUALLY it happened a couple of days ago and I just hadn't had the time to get it down. Kris told me that he loved me. ::Sigh:: My reply to him was " Please Don't ". I know that seems extremely harsh, but I've done EVERYTHING I could to make it clear that never would I ever reciprocate his feelings for me and his wants for a future together. I'm not sure what else has to happen. He also told me that he wanted me to be his wife.

He's a great guy. Very kind, sweet, and can sing like the sky opened up and leaked out a little ANGEL music. Kris would do ANYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE for me and treats me better than any of my ex's ever DREMPT of treating me. When I was sick he came all the way across town just to bring me some orange juice to my job... Today he came across town to my job to see me just because I was dressed up...

But what do you do when the feeling just isn't THERE?! I don't want to lose his friendship. But there will never be anything SERIOUSLY romantic there. Perhaps me still allowing myself to be physical w/ him hinders my message and I need to cut that off... but... I'm ALWAYS clear and forthright about what I want from this relationship.

Grr... whadda you do when someone says they love you and you don't feel the same...

** I smell whiskey **

Yawwwwwwwwwn....

I'm not really sure what time I fell asleep last night. I can say however, that it wasn't very late. I slept very wellllll... and might have to incorporate "whiskey/bourbon/brandy" into my everynight pre-bedtime ritual. WAIT!! That would make me an alcoholic right (lol)? I'm kidding. But it did help me get some rest and forget " The Lonliness "

Sooooooooo I woke up and realized--- " I smell whiskey... "... I look to the right and there is a huge ass glass of whiskey chillin' on the window sill (lol). No WONDER right? My first instinct was to pick it up and take a swing... ya know, start the day off right! But I didn't. I'm gonna go put it into the fridge... for later. (Wow. I really AM sounding like an alkie right now... I swear I almost never drink... let alone at home, alone. lmao)

I also realize I don't wanna meet up w/ Kris like I'd planned. lmao. SOoooooooooo I'm going to take my baby to the circus this evening. It's nothing huge. Like, not ringling brothers... It's the Kosair Childrens Hospital Shriners Circus. So, it should be fun... for a good cause :) I'll take pics.

I'm really feelin' on some Cracker Barrell today... I'm about to head out and grab it w/ my kid. What happened to my diet you say? Well I'm sure the ladies that read my blog can sympathize with the fact that there are CERTAIN TIMES when you wanna eat what you WANNA EAT. SO... I'm going to Cracker Barrell Dammit... and then back to the gym Monday...

The 5k is upon me. ONE MONTH FROM TODAY!!! I will have my ass out there running ( ummm maybe run/walking) 3.1miles... and two weeks after that 10k... then a 10 miler... LMAO Whew... I'm doin' it ya'll... I gotta get all svelte and beautiful so my prince charming will find me... lmaoooo yeah right.

Ya know, on a side note, I was surfing these blogs... there are REALLY some beautiful people in the Blogosphere... I'm not shocked... just a little taken aback... :) I love reading other peoples blogs, and despite the fact that I have only 14 readers, I respect and enjoy every comment I get. I ONLY FOLLOW blogs that I enjoy, and not just to gain followers... and I comment on EVERY BLOG that I join. I try to do it as much as possible... and I also randomly visit one blog from those people's blogs. and if I like it... I join. lol

Oh well that's all my ramblings... let me go put myself together... and grab some pannnnnnncakes from Cracker Barrell... Yummmmmmmmmmmmmo