**MAN! I PUT THAT ON MY GRANDMA'S GRAVE!**

This video MADE-MY-WEEK!
Ramen Noodles are LIKE that sometimes... but I've NEVER wigged out like this!!!
hahahahaha HILARIOUS!

New Year, New Do :)

Soooo It's 2010 right?? And everyone is talking about all the changes that they're going to make... Going to the gym... Enhancing their relationships... Stopping the smoking habit!

Me... I have done some of that... but like

I said in

the Vlog...it's a year of EXPLORATION for me... I have pledged to lose @ least 100lbs by the end of the year and I'm well on my way... I'm down 8lbs since 01/05... and I am trying to pace myself...

... but if you flash back i my blog about a YEAR ago, I was pledging the same thing.. lol but I'm still here... still chubby ... still as fluffy as ever ... lol...

Yesterday, I decided I needed an IMMEDIATE change and decided to try a ne

w hairdo... :) My hair chan

ges like the wind anyway... so this isn't really a DRASTIC difference... I just wanted longer, softer, more girlie... and I went

for it!!

I went ahead and put some weavaliciousness into my hair and voila... here ya go... Let me know what you think!! :)

I'll be vlogging again soon so you'll get to see this MASSIVE amount of hair! I mea

n it's like a MANE!!! I look like simba if I let it all down... hahaha...

Until next time... :)

... 2 years later ...

................ wooooo-sahhhhhh ................

Sooo... if I'm minding my own business... watching the "Bad Girls Club" and strumming my six-string, why oh why are you bothering me? Please explain how, when it's been at LEAST 6 months since I heard your voice, and a year and a half since I saw your face... you're still haunting me?

I'd ask you to leave... let me live my life... allow me to invite in even the prospect of submitting a portion of myself to someone else on the same level as you were afforded... I'd beg of you to let me reclaim that small piece of my heart that you'd stolen... no wait... I'd freely given in lighter times.... I'd request these things...

... except...

What would would I have?

... I can't smell you anymore... can't even remember your essence wafting lightly into my experience... your features are becoming vague, except for the technological 'gifts' that allow for my sadistic-voyeurism to flourish... But you look different... something changes when you're holding your son... or touching her... shoulder... something about that picture is wrong... strange...

... it's not you... it's her...
..............she.......................
...... should have been......
.............me..........................

... but it's not crippling anymore... these memories... thoughts... regrets.... matter of fact, you've become more fleeting than concrete... I go about time... being Jae... learning Jae... seeking Jae... forgetting J.

... release me...

... because I care about my readers, I ask for this ONE promise...

Because I care about you guys... I hope that you, my readers, will promise me that you will ALWAYS know how short your skirt is... and ALWAYS shave your taco meat... lmaooooooooooooooo I died laughing for at LEAST 30 minutes after viewing this.

hahahahahahah