So, we all go through things right? I've read blog afte blog after blog about happy relationships, bad ones, getting over ex's, and rekindling the 'fire within'. The experiences are all different. Different words. Different ways of getting 'back on the horse'. It's all so different that it's almost the same...
My question is, can you TRULY be broken? Can you get to a point where you're so skeptical about new 'love' and relationships that you can't PHYSICALLY feel the things that are felt when new love is budding? Can your "butterflies" be gone for good? Lightheadedness permanently cured? Is it possible that one bad turn has ruined you for the rest?'
Before, I was so happy go lucky with love. Had never been IN LOVE (until the last situation), but had loved every bf that I'd had ( and they were few (under 4)). It took little less than the sound of their voice, or their name appearing on my caller id to start the flutters. A MILLION butterflies over an open field letting me know that I was happy...
There's a look that shades my eyes... kind of a puppydog, sappy, "I'm enamoured" look. It's so thick that even I notice ( and you know these things are usually pointed out by people on the outside looking in). That look is gone. I've not had it for almost 2 years. I miss it. I miss how I used to feel.
I have NO INTEREST in any man. Usually there's someone who tickles my fancy. But now. Nothing. I actually have tried to weed as many men out of my life as possible. Only really talking to Kris ( my friend here), Jayce (my friend in NY), and sometimes Byron... a friend I talk to from time to time online. Other guys... annoy me. When there are sexual references made (by ANY MAN), that ALSO annoys me... Which is shocking... because USUALLY, I'm the one making the lewd comments. Ugh. I hate this.
I'm not really sure if you can be broken. If it's possible... I am there.
My question is, can you TRULY be broken? Can you get to a point where you're so skeptical about new 'love' and relationships that you can't PHYSICALLY feel the things that are felt when new love is budding? Can your "butterflies" be gone for good? Lightheadedness permanently cured? Is it possible that one bad turn has ruined you for the rest?'
Before, I was so happy go lucky with love. Had never been IN LOVE (until the last situation), but had loved every bf that I'd had ( and they were few (under 4)). It took little less than the sound of their voice, or their name appearing on my caller id to start the flutters. A MILLION butterflies over an open field letting me know that I was happy...
There's a look that shades my eyes... kind of a puppydog, sappy, "I'm enamoured" look. It's so thick that even I notice ( and you know these things are usually pointed out by people on the outside looking in). That look is gone. I've not had it for almost 2 years. I miss it. I miss how I used to feel.
I have NO INTEREST in any man. Usually there's someone who tickles my fancy. But now. Nothing. I actually have tried to weed as many men out of my life as possible. Only really talking to Kris ( my friend here), Jayce (my friend in NY), and sometimes Byron... a friend I talk to from time to time online. Other guys... annoy me. When there are sexual references made (by ANY MAN), that ALSO annoys me... Which is shocking... because USUALLY, I'm the one making the lewd comments. Ugh. I hate this.
I'm not really sure if you can be broken. If it's possible... I am there.
